Free as a Bird

About this time,

a year ago this very day, my plane was getting ready to land at LAX. I remember the first palm tree I saw from the plane window. I remember the first snow-capped mountain I saw. I remember the overwhelming sense of belonging, I remember trying to hold back my tears when I realized my dream had come true.

California, you are my home, and I will make it back to you someday soon. I promise. 

“You are a place in a story, in which I stop and find myself.

You are my best problem.

And I want you to feel this. Because this is what it feels like.”

(Source: iwrotethisforyou.me)

Note to self:

Bring it back. Just get it back on track. You have the power to do so, and you know that, so just bring it back around. Don’t lose your head over this. It’s okay to be sad, feel a little hurt, but don’t you dare let it keep you outta the race. You know what needs to be done, so do it.

Whatever you want, it’s yours. You know that. You know I’d do anything for you. Just please, tell me what you want, and it’s all yours.

kdangerb:

& what difference does it make?
I still love you a lot
Oh, I love you from the top of my heart;
& on your breast I gently lay,
all my head in your arms.
Do you love me from the top of your heart?
I tried my best, I tried in vain,
Do you love me a lot?
Do you love from the top of your heart?

today’s simple things

  • SUNSHINE
  • stretching
  • morning tea
  • feeling clean after my shower
  • fresh coat of nail polish
  • driving under this baby blue sky
  • singing along with my Good Old boys
  • money comin’ my way
  • Rangers at 7
  • Lakers at 10:30
  • spending my “once a month” at O’Brien’s tonight

Do not be angry with the rain; it simply does not know how to fall upwards.

—Vladimir Nabokov

The only things I know for sure (until I know more):

  • I fucking love my Jayboy. He is the best part of my life, and he means everything to me. He makes me want to be a better person, and when you find someone who does that for you, that person is the one. No matter what, that is the one person, if not anyone else, that you need to hold on to.
  • My life is getting better because I’m choosing to make things better. I’m choosing to believe in myself, and I’m choosing to light the fire within me which enables me to keep making positive decisions for myself.
  • Money doesn’t make me happy, but it will get me to where my happiness resides.
  • To be an honest person is the ONLY way to keep a clean soul and a strong conscience. If you are always honest with yourself and the people around you, you will be rewarded with sound peace of mind.
  • My smile makes others smile. That’s power.
  • Laziness is the fucking devil. Don’t succumb to laziness in any aspect of life, because you are better than that, and you are stronger than that. Keep on keepin’ the fuck on.
  • YOUR LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT. At the end of each day, you are the only person who has to live with your emotions and/or decisions. Live your life for yourself and for the people you love, and watch the positivity build its walls around you. Choose well for yourself, treat yourself with the utmost respect, and everything else will fall into place.

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More than anything, I don’t like being confused. Confusion, for me, causes any comfort I know to shift, and I don’t do well feeling insecure like that. I like to know what’s going on. I like to be in touch with the truth, no matter what the truth may be. Even so .. there isn’t much that I can’t groove with. I’ll always do my best to extract the positives and I’ll always try my hardest to accept whatever’s coming my way. I’m asking kindly, please everyone, just let me know what the fuck is up.